Wednesday, January 30, 2013

A week without Instagram.

So, I basically have the best job in the world. Don't get me wrong, it has its ups and downs like any job, but it's still the best job in the world. I'm on staff with Cru which means I get the privilege of being in the lives of college students as they get to know Jesus. I cannot begin to tell you how amazing these young men and women are. All on different journeys, all from different backgrounds, all in different seasons of their walks with God, it's pretty incredible. I will definitely be sharing more about them and my work in later posts. I just wanted to give you some background as I begin to explain to you why I'm taking a week long break from...drumroll please...
It all started two weeks ago when one of my lovelies (one of the girls I mentor/disciple) told me about this cool thing that she is going over with some of her lovelies. It's called Quarter Challenge. It almost sounds like it could be some crazy event in the Hunger Games. I insist it is not. But nonetheless, I will pretend I am the Katniss Everdeen of non-instagrammers. Anyway, back to Quarter Challenge. Basically every week this quarter (It is 10 weeks total) you and the person you disciple take on a challenge. This week, it's giving up something. And it's not just wimp sauce something. It's something in your life you go to for comfort, to feel accepted, loved, good about yourself. Maybe it's the thing you go to so you don't have to deal with what's really going on inside. 

So, when we started this thing last week, and I realized what this first challenge entailed, the very first thing that popped into my mind was Instagram. Then my mind proceeded to say "No! Anything but Instagram!" So, for this past week I've been thinking of any and everything else I could give up other than Instagram. No joke. It's been a battle. Seems so trite, doesn't it? Instagram? Really? 

Yes, Instagram.
And yes, really. 

There are wonderful things about it for sure. For instance...
 I get to connect and keep up with friends who are close, far away, and my sweet new blogging friends. 
I love taking pictures. 
I love that this is a way I can share my life. 
I am inspired daily by other instagrammers.
I have a community of Christian women who challenge me by posting what they are reading and learning in their times with Jesus. 
The list could go on.

There are things about it though, that I think need to change.
I wake up and check Instagram. 
As I go into spending time with Jesus I think, "How can I capture this in a cool way and post it on Instagram?" This is fine, but I want to go into my quiet times with Jesus not caring about the pictures I take, but caring about knowing Him & being with Him. 
After that, I post on Instagram.
Then I check who has posted. 
Then I check who has posted with the hashtags I used. 
Then I look at other peoples' beautiful photos.
Then I compare myself. 
Repeat multiple times a day. 
Before bed, check Instagram. 
Wake up, do it again.
Ew, ugly, but it's the truth. 

I don't want Instagram to be the first and last thing on my mind. When I go on and see other peoples' photos, I want to rejoice with them, thank God for their talents, what He is doing in their lives, and just take in all that beauty with a pure heart. 
So, I guess now's a better time than ever to take a break, search my heart, get my mind realigned, give it to the Lord, come back a bit more healthy-minded and with the right motives in my heart. 

I think I'm actually looking forward to this. Weird. 
Welp, I guess this is it ol' Instagram.
See you in a week. 


  1. Just don't take any more beautiful pictures of the conservatory that I might miss out on. haha!

  2. Very good & honest post! :) I would love to see you write about other things you do for your quarter challenage!

    1. Sharitza, thank you, that means a ton to me. Also, funny I was thinking about writing about each challenge so, so thank you for the inspiration! It was a little confirmation for me. :) P.S. Love your blog. So lovely. the "thank you" post tugged on my heart.

  3. Yes. This is what I needed in this moment. I'm excited to see your follow-up when this challenging time in your life is over ;) Seriously, though, I know what you mean about how big these "little things" become until they take over. My mind's already reeling about that one thing that I'm saying "Anything but that."

    1. Yes! haha. When your hear yourself say "anything but that" it is such an indication that there is something more underneath it all. It's so frustrating, but so good at the same time!!