Sunday, January 20, 2013

Slow Starts

So, I've been thinking about my blog lately. Well, like a lot I guess. 

Thinking about what I want it to be. 
What I want to say. 
Pictures I want to post. 
Thoughts I want to get out. 
The list could go on.

All these blogs I follow have a theme, something they are about. And that's the advice I keep getting. Have something you focus on. It's such good advice, & has helped me to get this show on the road with my blog but it stresses me out right now. I feel paralyzed almost. It's why I haven't posted as much as I desire to post. 

So, I have this theme. Simplicity in the city. Well, what if this blog evolves into something that is something else? Is that okay? I know the answer is yes, that IS okay. But I feel like I'm not letting myself let it be okay. 

Probably because I want to look like I have it all together. 
I don't. 
And that's the point of this whole thing.
To let people into this whole process of me figuring it out. Or not figuring it out. 
Whatever the outcome, the point is to write about the journey, to be real about the outcomes, and to glorify God in my writing, processing, and sharing of my heart and life. 
Why in the world do I feel like I have to have it all together? Probably because everything in this world tells me I have to have it all together. Makes sense. And I'm scared if I don't have it all together then people are going to tell me how much of a crazy mess I am and say mean things. 
I guess that's the risk.
The thing is, I am a crazy mess and I already know that. 
So, I guess if that is the worst thing that could happen {someone telling me how much of a mess I am} so be it. It's not like I'm in the dark about it. 
That's when I give all the more glory to God for redeeming this mess and making something beautiful of it. 

Well, okay. There that is. Who knew all that was in this head of mine? Not it.
 Until now. 

{Side note: It's like blogging is my way of verbally processing when I don't want to talk.}

Off to bed.
Still thinking.
Still figuring it out. 
Letting this blog happen and seeing where it goes. 




6 comments :

  1. excited about your blog. love you girl!
    -liz

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  2. Yep, silence the voices and get to it! I feel like part of the focus comes about when I actually blog. I start to realize what I thought would be fun isn't, and what I never thought about turns out to be my favorite thing to share! I think it's great you're starting with an idea. But don't be afraid to mix it up. If you're going to decide to flip this thing around 180, best to get that out of your system now when you're in the beginning :)

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    1. Trina, seriously, can you please just move to Chicago? Then we can be neighbors and I can come hang out with you guys and I can glean wisdom and all would be well. haha! Thank you for this encouragement and practical advice as I try...slowly but surely...to move forward. You are a blessing.

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  3. CHRISTINE! love it. this is so fun and i love how you've put it together. i can't wait to read more! :)

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    1. Aaaah friend, thank you! Thank you for reading it. When you moving here? haha

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