Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Baby Elston

A few of our sweet friends who have heartbreakingly gone before us in this have named their babies who have gone to be with the Lord. I found this to be really beautiful and I see an importance in it for our family to name our sweet sunshine baby. 

Something incredible happened the night of May 7th
that I want to tell you about. 
Before I fell asleep I prayed and asked that if it would be the Lord's will, would he show me somehow if our baby was a boy or a girl. I had no clue how it would happen and I knew as I was praying that it could never happen and I was okay with that. It was a really difficult night with cramping and I didn't sleep very well, but somehow in the midst of the difficult, I had a dream about our sunshine baby. I want to write this down so I don't ever forget it because I really believe this was a sweet gift from the Lord. In my dream I was with our friend Natalie. She opened up a curtain of some sort and I saw our baby. He was a toddler with overalls on. He had blonde hair and was standing on a porch looking out into a yard. What a sweet, sweet gift. Just incredible. 
You know, I could get to heaven and this baby could be a brunette female volleyball player the height of PK and I put together, but for now this dream gives me comfort. It makes me even more in awe of God. It makes me feel known by Him and reminds me that He really is holding us, holding our hearts and loves us more than we will ever be able to understand. His love is that deep for us. For you.
 It's a crazy amazing love that I am clinging to in this season. 

So, I just want to thank God for His kindness in giving me a sneak peak of our boy. I know he gets to hang out with his grandpa {PK's dad} and I can't wait to meet both of them one day. What a sweet reunion that will be. 

It took us a while, but we finally chose a name. 

Elston Graham Konicki
{our sunshine baby} 

Elston means "My God is Jehovah"
Graham means "Abode"

It gives me comfort to know our baby is at home with Jesus. 

I found this to be fitting as well: 
People with the name Elston tend to be a powerful force for all whose lives they touch. They are capable, charismatic leaders who often undertake endeavors with great success. They value truth, justice and discipline. 

Sounds a lot like his Dad with a side of Mom. I love this. 

Our brave Elston, 
You, sweet one, have touched our lives in such a powerful way. You have taught me how to love deeper, to pray with my hands and my heart wide open, and to celebrate with all I've got. You made me a mama and I'll never be the same again. Because of you my faith in God has grown and my trust in Him has deepened. I know you're up in Heaven gettin' things done, just like your dad does here. I can imagine you are a lot like him, seriously and fervently loving the saints, loving God, doing all of that with excellence. Your dad and I love you. And miss you. And think the world of you.


  1. What a sweet name; and I am praising God for a dream that brought you comfort. Ryan and I are still praying for you and PK. We love you guys!

  2. That is incredible how God comforted you with the gift of that dream. And love the name. Continuing to pray for you both.